Thank You Dear GEEmails

So it was YOU PEOPLES that kept me up all night this time instead of just me! LOL
If there is a way, a possibility of loving perfect strangers, met only through text for a decade or more... then I really do love you!
First cuppa... hang with me, I gots cobwebs but I have stuff to share.
In 1996 I found the internet. I was Dear Gee then. I didnt blog but I found a voice elsewhere. It began a journey which led me to the whole 7 chapters of my first book. ( never to be completed mind you). For reasons I cannot disclose I stopped writing altogether. It was around the time that I fractured my back and changed my life. Until I found the blog world, I didnt know that I missed writing with you peoples so much! I am telling you all of this because its happening again, and this time I think I will run with it. Dear Gee of course is Dear Gina. She was, is... for whatever reason I dont understand.. Dear somebody special to write to/with. Lets fast forward shall we?
Thanks Dear Blog Readers... I would like to always say THANK YOU for your support, prayer, friendship, encouragement, smiles, belly laughs, generousity.. all of it! But especially for this...........
Three emails came in yesterday for Dear Gina,not to answer some mind boggling problems that I love to help solve with you... but giving thanks TO ME! For thanking me for helping you when all this time I thought it was you helping me! It feels so very good to know that while walking through fire I can actually still "give". What a great feeling I tell you. I have always said that if my goofy ideas of channel changing, clicking, Colombo-ing, brain storming,recipes, quilting, pondering,, grief work, anything that I share with you FEEDS someone, then I feel FULL. Thats my story and I'm sticking to it. Thank you and I love hearing reading your feedback every single morning. Keep 'em coming and maybe someday I WILL finish the book!
Love Yer Guts!!!

Worry & TaT

"Worrying is using your imagination
to create something you don't want"

Abraham Hicks

It is in my subjective opinion that a person really can call to them what they FOCUS on. Good and bad.

Everything we want in life we can have through a trained brain. Its funny how I forget this from time to time and lose focus of my real juice.My real desires... passion. To control and direct the very focus of my brain. Direct it to happy places only.  Now I know stressers cause this to get weak, and sometimes even fall off a cliff. Pain, grief, pain...lol Changing the channels generally has always worked for me. I think I fell off a cliff. I'm climbing back up. See me? While I dig my nails into every rock I can find, I  forgot one thing. My focus. I'm all over it.

Mr. Wizard was most surprised at my news today. ( as is everyone else) Happily, mind you, but I saw worry on his face.  I can spot that a mile away. The above qoute works for me. I have had enough of it to last a lifetime and frankly my dears... I'm sick of it.

I dont bellieve turning to food or drugs to withstand the challenges within ones self. Its just that I too struggle and work hard at defeating painful things. Conflict. grief. whatever... Never more so in my entire life, than now.

Success= creating consistant pleasure (love, good)  Failure=finding the pain (bad, wrongs) to focus on. What you focus on is how you feel. How about if I focus on pleasure? Finding and rolling in pain just isnt working for me now is it?

Sometimes I think my brain is a computer and I may have a virus. Maybe I need to delete some chit. I will forever ask questions. Evaluate, analyze. Thats just how I roll. Could be I need better questions to ask. My Mother was so very wise and she didnt even know it. She constantly told me not to ask "why" so much. She always backed it up with Ask  HOW and you will find the answer, and fix it. ( she usually followed this up with a hand waving brush off,  and telling me that I had a wild imagination....true! )

My brain enjoys learning... but it seems to only love to learn what I have passion for.

Wierd.

Sorry for my Post Mr Wizard ramblings. Its a good thing. Worry is not.

I am going to go an focus on a pretty quilt. And maybe eat a cookie, I roll that way too:) ( boy do I ever)



G'Night



Did I mention that I'm going home?
:::squeal::::

Marvelous Monday Indeed

"A child can teach an adult three things:

 to be happy for no reason,

 to always be busy with something,

 and to

know how to demand with all his might that which he desires." 

A great productive week end! I'm going home:) I am about to spin off but I wanted to share the above sentiment and beautiful valentine with you:) Shawn, ya made my day!

I want to let all of you know that i COULD BE available for hire not as a personal shopper but as an experianced mover!! GRUNT. DOUBLE GRUNT.

I have quilts to finish up, and here I go again, but this time, with a happy heart, hopeful soul, determined mind. I wonder if it was because i demanded of myself all that i desire? Hmmm the mouths of babes eh?

Happy Valentines Day again, and MM Include:

The sweet smell of success ( or is that fish? I dunno)

Beautiful red roses I watch by the hour exploding with love for its air to breath

Shawns Valentine

The cornbread I just made, geez.. yen CAN cook!

Sharing more than skin

Road trips with good friends, her loving eyes with a lil laughter on the side

Katy Pery Screaming FIREWORKS!

P!NK  Screaming "Less than( F'in) perfect!"

Plan G (not to be confused with A, B, or C)

"When you cannot make up your mind between two evenly balanced courses of action, choose the bolder."
William Joseph Slim



Courage is the human virtue that counts most,

courage to act on limited knowledge and insufficient evidence.

That's all any of us have."

Robert Frost

OKay, so I made a plan for the 12th. Please forgive my absense in advance for I am taking myself to the coast for a few days. I have thought long and hard and what Jamie would want the most is a little bit of happy for Mom. Happy for Mom is a coastal view. I plan on visiting my dentist for the loose bridge. ( not happiness mind you). I will drive the beach and play with the seagulls. Ginger will enjoy this immenseley! I will visit my Pal Linda and have some good wine chat. Mr Mufasa and I will more than likely walk and talk alot and maybe even have a Valentines dinner. The biggest plan for the 12th? Are you sitting down? Of course you are... ok, dont spew the cuppa K?
 I plan on house/shop hunting so I can go home. Yes. I said it. I cannot find peace in a place where I am so uncomfortable. I wanna go home! I hope that you heard the way that I said that even if it soundest childish. I wish with all of my heart that I could take all the things that I love from here with me , ( I can count them on one hand) combine them with my DQL on the coast, and POOF, she's OKAY peoples... she's okay.
I know that I cannot. I wont say that coming back here was a mistake, because I do not believe that. It very well  may have even been nessesary. I will ask Mr Wizard. ( I finally got scheduling fixed.)
I must do whats best for me. If I am to be happy, I must be healthy. Mind, body and soul. This I cannot have here.So.. I am off... wish me luck. It is NOT easy to find an affordable home with a 14 foot machine in tow. YA KNOW? Meanwhile, I am determined and at least a firm decision made. My DQL is but 300 miles south and I aim to get there. This is quite the journey wouldnt you agree? Jamie would too. I bet he hurts because I hurt. I gotta stop that. CLIC
Happy Valentines Dear Blog Readers! May all of your loves be sweet to you. Love yer guts and see you on hopefully on MARVELOUS Valentines MONDAY with great news!

The Pioneer Woman Rocks SF!

Well! Heather and I made the trek to my city by the bay!

We went,we ate, we poligriped a bridge back in, we saw, we signed, we snapped pics.. we conquered!

 THAT dear blog readers was more fun than a barrel of monkeys!!!

Ms Ree did not disappoint! Despite the crowds and heat from them, we got to visit with her, ask stupid questions, and meet her punks too!I have enjoyed many a cuppa or two reading Pdub's blog with many a tickle to go with it!

Her cookbook was cute and I'll bet this new book "From Black Heels to Tractor Wheels" will be a hoot!

I cant wait to read it, altho I must admit I would prefer it on Audio, but how would I have gotten THAT signed? Thank you H for the book and the company. Where we going next month?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7qmV9PckK3k

Bullet Proof Vest Or????? Happy Birthday Daniel!

Walking weights?

Answer is....................Walking weights! I gotta get me one of these! Not that I dont have ENOUGH weight to carry around eh? My Sis has a goal. Lose all body fat before she vacations in the Bahamas this summer. Alrighty then... I would just like to lose some poundage to quilt easier! I have never seen one of these have you? It weighs a ton too!!! LOL I have to tell you that when she came out wearing this yesterday I nearly peed my pants laughing. Thoughts drifted to the day before in my OWN FRONT YARD 4 of Stocktons finest Police cars doing something near the condo next to me! I thought wow.. maybe I should get a bullet proof vest!

I SO WANT TO GO HOME!!! I hate this place. No matter how I try to bloom where I'm planted... THIS is beyond me.

Why cant I just win a little lottery ticket and take my friends ad family to the coast, buy a Smurf compound and live happily ever after? I'm just sayin!!!!

I'll take them with me K? Please??? Hear me sweet Universe of mine? Ask, believe, receive? I'm ON IT!!!

Happy Birthday Daniel!!!

Time keeps marching on and these grands of mine make me older Wiser!!!

Have a great Pizza Night Daniel!

M & M's

Is it still Monday? I know I'm late. Just home and I have a cold. I got THICK! I thought it was just vallergies, but its really a full blown head cold. GRUNT. I gots green tea ,warm pup across my feet, and a laptop. I'll be okay right? We had a good time ending with a picnic with Ma. Onward............
Other news My temporary bridge didnt go the distance. 4 days short of my mold for the permenant one! Yep yep yep... I feel look like Sloth! I'll be taking my Sloth self to the coast and get if fixed in a few days.
HEY!!! I took Heather to her very first crab feed and guess what? WE WON STUFF! I won a smoking hot red handbag with a zebra flower and some wine.. Heather won candles.. and a nice chicky won my dancer quilt. A great night. I enjoyed visiting Livermore. A quaint lil city, reminded me of Danville. I looked for Alex Anderson, but.. nope.. she didnt come to the crab feed?
I need to rest up. I have aq busy day as Heather and I will embark on yet another journey tomorrow! Did I tell you about The Pioneer Womans book signing in SF? Well, she and I (H) are going! Roadtrip!

M & M's include

Crab feeds!!
Good friends & family

The Year Without Ma

"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
 Nathaniel Hawthorne

I made a plan. I'm gonna go spend time with my Sissy and family, do a matinee and a nice meal out. We will laugh, we will remember, and we will dish some dirt. Then take some popcorn and flowers over to Mom's resting site and tell her all about the day. I think she will like that. She will especially like that we are doing what we all love to do, and doing it on Super Bowl Sunday to boot!! I will tell her of all the smiles for the year, and breeze by all of the tears. I know that she is more than likely aware of all of it ( she always knew) But I'm gonna tell her anyway. I'm almost certain that she knew each and everytime I reached for the phone to call her for advise, a recipe, a landing, a craving for a banan split, or just a good cry. I will thank her for keeping her promise of always being with me,and especially for showing where her walnut herb dressing recipe went, but I will scold her for no tamales this year. This will definetley start an arguement over why I didnt do it my damn self. I will ask her repeatedly if she is with my boy and if all is well. I will beg for an answer by any means. She will probobly skirt that subject and begin tongue wagging me about not taking care of myself this year. I can even hear my middle name and see an eyebrow in full raise.It will be a good day. It will be a rough day.I will make tons of promises, and she will hold me to them. I will forever miss you Ma, stay with me K?
If ONLY I could plan February 12th so easily right? Clic

What You Doing Today?



The best exercise for the heart is to reach down and lift someone else up.

"Tim Russert".

It just occurred to me that I dont usually blog on Saturdays... hmmmm I wonder why not? I do the same coffee routine right? I'll ponder that.This morning I'm treating myself to some Kona beans fresh ground. Ummmm reminds me of Maui... oh.. reminds me of Maui... CLIC
So what are you doing? Making yummy super bowl menu items? Planning the perfect Valentines Day gifts? Housekeeping? I am making a plan now... Top of my list is to find a date for tonights crab feed in Livermore...lol  Who wants to go? I am going to attempt grooming Ginger via YouTube. ( ssshhh dont tell her K), Laundry, cleaning and oiling Greta Gammil, and a little lap top quilting.. oh yes! QVC is going to be with me all day too..lol Company!:::thats disgustingly sad). I woke up with the sneezy sniffles.. I hope its allergies. Hope Hope.I have absolutley no patience for becomming sick.
Now... I would really rather be doing other things, like shopping! Yep yep yep... I want to do Costco and spend a perverse amout of money..lol Oh! Oh! I know! I wish to be in Arroyo Grande doing the same thing at Marshalls! I would buy a cartful of Valentines dresses! No wait! I would go right down the street here to my jeweler and pick up Pandora charms for all of my Valentines!!! GRUNT. ::sigh:: I think that would be so much fun dont you? Just choosing those charms for all that I LUB. Beats the hell out of a pajama gram wouldnt you agree? Speaking of.... WHAT women really want one of those pajama grams anyway??? Geez... might as well be a Snuggie. I get a tickle from these commercials though. I imagine all kinds of things! One of my favorites is "HE WENT TO JARED"S!!" Geez... Men, call me! I will take you to the nearest Pandora dealor K? Step away from the pajama gram!
 I have decided to become a frugal freak instead. I joined a site too.. really! I guess I dont want to talk about that since I am in need of retail therapy. Its probably because I missed Mr Wizard this week huh? Yep.. lets call it that. Did you people miss Tell All Tuesday? I knew that you would:) I kinda missed it too. My mistake in scheduling, I'm on it though!
I guess I better GET on it and GET busy. Happy weekend dear blog readers, LYG!

Crab Feed Donation Quilt

OMGoodness someone take the damn camera away from me! I dont think I could take a decent photo if I had a pro over my shoulder!! My Phone camera stinks. My Oly is Broky, and Walt sent home my old favorite, and its THIS picture, so I guess you KNOW what that means? Yeh! Me too! I stink!

This queen is the first of 2 crab feed quilts for thier silent auction. My cousin Glenda ( better known as super Mom me thinks) is heading up the Feed for her Daughter Rileys dance Troupe. ( do ya spell it that way? ) Those STARS look like dancers on there right??? Anyway... Its in Livermore and I'm afraid that I wont make this one. Hopefully the next!
I am also in hopes of it fetching good monies for the charity. I know that the Epilepsy Foundation quilt always knocks my socks off with the proceeds. If ya ask me, the way to go on these is photo memory quilts. Pics of all the "players" of said group. THEY are always a 6 Hankie Win! Really, the sales are through the roof trying to win a pic of their childs mug on a quilt! Its a wonderful fundraiser peoples!
Okay, I'm burning the midnight oil with the next one:)
Love yer guts!

Craigs List Quilter

"Happiness is neither virtue nor pleasure nor this thing nor that

 but simply growth.

We are happy when we are growing."
– William Butler Yeats

Mornin`.. Wanna hear a story of what NOT to do on Craigs list? Ok.. grab a cuppa...
In an effort to promote even more local business, I posted an ad on Craigs List for my services. Yes I did. Wierd, but true. I've been doing a bunch of strange things this year, beleive me! So I'm driving my happy ass home from the coast (I say happy because I got some sun!) and my phone rings. Now calm down I am in the middle of nowhere without a car in sight. I answer it.
Caller, Hi, this is Tiffany and I have a lap top to be quilted, can you fit me in?
M: <smirking at "fit in"> Sure, how about tomorrow , would you lke 3 or 4 pm? ( I believe in choices ya know)
Caller: I'll take 3 pm, whats your address?
Me: I GAVE IT TO HER
Caller, ok, see u then
Me: Tiffany? Which quilt shop referred you to me?
Caller: Oh, no shop.. Craigs list
Me: <pulling car over> OIC, okkkkkk see you then.

Now I am in a slight panic. Did I REALLY just give my address to a perfect stranger on craigs list? I THINK I DID!
OK, now I 've done it. Just when I think that the LUCY moves cant get any screwier ( don't use that in scrabble K?) They get screwier!!
I took out my trusty text finger and notified the world around me. An all call to be on alert for 3 pm tomorrow. Do you know where your mother, wife, sister, friend is??? Now its not enough that I haven't slept well in 3 damn years, lets ADD this to the mix! REALLY? I did what? grunt.
Fast forward to film at 11:00 ..............
I was once again lucky in life and I wasnt raped, robbed or murdered. I DID in fact meet a very nice novice piecer on a mission. THANK YOU LORD!
All the text recipients can relax, I'm safe. Will you all please watch me a TAD bit closer? I am a dork!
Now here where I am, reports are on the news nearly nightly of what NOT to do on Craigs list. I am a watcher of said news! Everyday I say.............. whats wrong with me???!!!????

Thoughts

"He who cannot change the very fabric of his thought

 will never be able to change reality."

– Anwar al-Sadat

Second cuppa interesting thought don't you agree? Hmmmm I'm all over it! (as usual)

I woke up this morning with this mad craving for Rissoto with asparagus. Maybe some cream of asparagus soup? How about asparagus with Isralie couscous!!! I wonder if your body calls out for veggies like it does RED MEAT? Its true! I always know when I need a iron boost. Don't you? Hey! speaking of irons.......... I always get a tickle to read in a quilter blog the perils of finding the right iron. Boring yet important information to we quilters eh? Well, I get to talk about it now!!! I promise not to bore you though. I just think THIS warrants chat. Heres the back story: Ten years ago I bought a Rowenta pro. Last year it died. I replaced with inexpensive Sunbeam. Its just OKAY. I couldnt afford to replace my Rowenta yet.

Heres the front story: Walt had fun on QVC, was feeling romantic generous, and bought for me this AMAZING ( read Sarah word) New Rowenta PINK POINTY PRO! I think its officially called a steaminator or something? Boasting 1800 watts of mind blowing steam...lol ( hand blowing!!) I'm seriously loving this iron! Mind you only binding has happened so far, so I would like to reserve my further reviews for when I attack a back or something K? Gettinginto miters, all collars and corners and inbetween buttons is going veryyyy nicelyyyyyyy!
Meanwhile, I better hush now as not to bore you as promised:) I am in hopes that THIS Rowenta will go 10 years too!

Ok, I'm up.. I'm going... I'm gone!

Exsisting vs Living M & M's

There comes a time in life, when you walk away from all the drama, and those who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh, forget the bad, and focus on the good. So, love the people who treat you right. Pray for the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of LIFE...Getting back up & moving forward is LIVING
Anddddd you missed me right? Its been a very long week end and I have been digging myself out of a hole and doing all of my homework too. I visited the coast and absolutley drowned myself in as much sun as my lil body could hold. Did I mention that I miss home? Yeh, I do. Right now I am looking out my foggy window and I think I lost my dog in it. Wow... Speaking of holes... THIS may be the very HOLE I feel! CLIC

Its February 1st. January is done. Thank God. The journal pages changed, the month locked and gone. Again, moving forward.
Did you hear about the Pioneer Woman's book signing in San Francisco next week? Wanna go? I do! Her blog style cracks me up at least once a week!  Go Ree!!!

Tuesday, February 08, 2011
07:00 PM
BOOKS INC
Books Inc. at Opera Plaza 601 Van Ness San Francisco, CA 94102

I am hot on a quilt this morning! I think I have some mojo! Gotta run!
M & M's:

3 days of real sleep,snuggling and sunshine
A Pink Pointy new Iron:)

It's Thursday, WTH Am I Doing?

Make a list.

Check it often.

Dont forget personal stickies all over the house!

Have 4 calendars going between Dayplanner, Smart phone, desk top and laptop!

switch rings on fingers .....

But above all else.............

Thats my story and I'm sticking to it!

Guess Who's Happy Birthday It Is?

Only one of the greatest women of the world!

Or is that quilter? Oh no, I think its friend... no... maybe its Mom, grandmom, sista or Aunti?

How about just great!

Happy Birthday Dear Ronda!

 I love ya!

Identity Fit & Mr Wizard /TaT

Upon further contimplation (cause thats what I do) ( while boiling eggs) I have decided that I have my foot firmly planted in an identity threat. Now WHO needed a team of shrinks for that? I knew the answer would come!Yes, it is entirely possible that I've lost whats left of my mind. But.........
Now one could call it meaningful collaboration with Mr Wizard, but frankly, THIS never came up.
What if.......... You were shook to your very core with loss,(es) death,(s) change,(es) fear, and add in a threat to your forever happy place?
So I'm quilting away over there, having a little hissy fit with a variegated silky thread. It wouldn't give me perfect tension and I was talking to it as though it were my first born. I had to stop and snicker because I remembered in the beginning how when this happened to me I would find a wall, slink down onto the floor, and bawl for awhile. How far I had come from those days. I actually evolved and BECAME a quilter. I wasn't born that way ya know. I was always somebody else until my quilting journey began. So and So's Mom. So and So's wife. Manager of... Food & Beverage director Of...Innkeeper For.... Even Owner Of....I had IDENTITIES. One day, it turned into that long arm quilter over there... Oh you know Dear Gina.. the quilter from yada yada yada....I found contentment in my identity. I found peace within my realm of colleagues. Then all hell seemed to have broken loose upon the tragic, untimely loss of my son. From that moment in time nothing right can be found. Nothing normal. Not even new normals, unless you would like to call CHANGE a new normal. However, I digress. Who was I now? The Mother of that poor boy? :::God I miss him so much I ache all the time::: WHO could keep track? With all of the moves and changes I think my identity has been IS BEING threatened and I am having an internal fit to defend and protect. WHO wouldn't protect their own identity? I had a good friend say nothing less than earth shattering words to me. "G, I don't think you want to quilt anymore". Another one said, "Hey sell your shit, get bitchy, and go make the big bucks again". And of course, the ALL TIME hair raiser, " Why don't you just go get a real J.O.B.". I was scared! I was am pissed! JUST because I have artistic discord does not equate to identity in trash can. Now, how exactly to locate that artistic harmony is anybodies guess eh? Where's my damn globe? I need it. I need to paste some spots on it. I figured something out. YAY me!
I'm sorry, but THIS identity I shall fight for to the death, and that's all I have to say about that.
 LAQ
Todays session with Mr Wizard was part two in a series of debate. I think that I failed that, AGAIN!

Crab Feed Number One /M & M's

G'morning:) I'm on my second pot, looking for the buzz.. I think I need to switch to expresso! I am fumbling in the shop trying to load a quilt but keep getting sidetracked organizing thread. Thread makes me happy, so its all good..lol I am in search of a perfect thread choice for my Crab Feed Donation quilt. A silent Auction for my cousin Glendas charity event.I took an underwear day yesterday, so I'm trying to find"doubletime" today. I needed it. Or I just didnt give a flying fart one... I dunno.
Jake was in town on Saturday and we went to a crab feed with Karen and Becca too.  I had such a good time that I guess I lost my crab tool box full of pics, crackers and tongs... dang it! Anyway...We had a great time and then went to see Kim ( heathers Kim) play his guitar at a local pub. I personally love his mellow acoustic more, but this was fun too. I tried very hard to have a totally different week end than last week... Maybe if I hit a crab feed every week end I will fake it til I make it? lol It could happen?Hey! I have so many UFO's going on I could donate to every one of them! I think my favorite will always be the SLO feed. I Miss home....CLIC
I will leave you with a picture and get my butt moving... or try!

M & M's:
A visit with Jake
Crab Feed number 1
Flowers for me on a Monday:)
The bird quilt done!
wow... hard and it shouldnt be...............
**EDIT** My poor BFF who has to deal with my self absorbed self on a weekly basis called my attention to yet another M & M. I am ashamed of myself:(
I had a wonderful time watching her Kim happily play his guitar after the crab feed and I saw a familiar look on his face. It was a look of sheer pleasure of enjoying his art. I dont know if I wanted to join him on stage, or just line up more events to see! Either way, it was truly part of my gratitudes for the week. Kim ya wanna team up?

ok, one more... THIS little pistal!

Human Bird Quilt

G`morning:) I tried to get a decent shot of this for ya but I guess I am camera phone impaired? I have used flash on/off...scenes.. nights... close.. far... NO CAN DO? I think that Avianas swear jar might very well turn into a Nonni camera jar! ( oh wait, I already robbed it.. chit.)
Its a 60 inch square wall hanging of needle turned applique human birds. I NEED it to be over today. I must get back to my Blue Beauty. Dont ya love zippered leaders??? Its really tough here since space is compromised but I still manage to drag my leaders around..lol The other night I had such a mess in the shop that I couldnt even hop around dancing to that new song Heather introduced me to.. Hey mama! Hey mama! I tell ya, that song and 2 cups of coffee theres no end to the JUMPING possibilities!
I made a dr. appt. Now I`m making a list!  It could be sinus related? Maybe it could all resolve with sun. I have no idea. They tell me that we should get some late today. I sure hope so. I`m on the rdge, I swear.
Okay, I am going to drag myself to it... TGIF Peeps! CLICK THIS!!!( I double dog dare you not to bounce something!)

Send a Happy Thought?

"We cannot do everything at once but we can do something at once."
Calvin Coolidge

Morning.... my coffee isnt hot. Crap. Why does this happen? I'm so grumpy! I have been having quite a few rough nights. My daughter has me diagnosed with some heart failure stuff..A friend has me walking around with my Moms Diabetes... UG.. I think its par for the course. ( no, I dont play golf so why the hell would I say that?) I know I havent been taking good care of myself. I'm so sick of pain, All of it. in and out. Hmm.. maybe I AM sick of it. Maybe stress really CAN make one sick. I was THIS close to going into the ER last night. I think the only reason I didnt call for help was because I know my iron door is locked! How is anyone to get in? But that was the plan? I need a new game plan. Before I have to go in! My DQL sucks big green wienies! CLIC
I have so much to do today so I better get the self talk talking. Such a cool lie..................But ya lub me right?
Peace out:)

*And THEN I forgot that today is stove demolition day!!! WOW! :::film at 11:00::::