Bloom Where You're Planted

Who made that up? Bloom where you're planted.... :::pondering this morning over my second cuppa.::: I was excited yesterday when a pal called to say "Lets go to Pismo and shop today". I was onboard. I was all over that. I cheerfully replied, "I'll drive!" It was good to be there, but as the morning past it became increasingly evident that this was no longer my home. Damn it. I was happy here. I was blooming HERE. I chatted lightly with Tracy over lunch, but my thoughts were really on the life ahead. Life as you know has not had a normal morsel in it since January 2008. I was happy doing something "normal" like stopping at Marshalls for a FIND OF THE WEEK as I usually do. Our lil grandkids, and self appointed God daughter are sure to suffer with G being out of the area. It occurred to me that I maybe could find normal, and even happy if I just let go and let it happen. Whether it is about my Jamie, where I live, or whats going on around me.. I need to give up the control factor, realizing IM SO NOT IN CONTROL ANYWAY, and let it happen. Bloom where I'm planted. I of course answer myself by saying how in the heck can I bloom anywhere when all I want is my son to walk through any door with a goofy grin on his face and say Hey Ma! Whats to eat? I cant tell you how many times a day I fall as this crosses my mind/heart. Its just not real sometimes... It just isnt. Theres no blooming to be had.
Change channel....clic
Bloom..... I told Tracy to get in the car, we are going exploring. I dropped the top on the car and jumped on 101 headed for SLO to shop only 12 miles from home as opposed to a 40 minute drive to Pismo. ( please note that this was AFTER the "FIND" at Marshalls...lol, sorry kids, this time it was a Giraffe for the home!) We had a good time and decided that theres much to be explored here, and damn, I need a bigger wallet. GRUNT. I need to get the shop up and running and get back to work!
If not for the PITA Stairs and compromised knee, this home is the coolest! Everywhere I look I have fun with the potential. I know that Walt too is contemplating blooming here too. Maybe it all boils down to being overwhelmed. I guess I could sum up several months with that word. Overwhelmed. So I pick up my coffee, and my knee as I ponder Walts encouraging words of the week. Do whats nessesary, do whats possible, and soon, you will be doing the impossible...
Blooming?
Hmmmmmmmmm