A Lonely Job?

I have been over there quilting---> thinking.... I need a break, and I need to ponder in type. So you're it!

Walt came home from work last evening, happy and a little tired. He asked me about my day, I about his. He gave me a quick answer, and I yakked his ear off for about 30 minutes without a breath. I stopped myself and asked him again, so what went on during the in service? He detailed a bit more for me and then wondered in to grab his email. He then called to me while I was busy making spaghetti for dinner... " Babe....are you lonely?" I stopped in my tracks and replied, "hmmm... no, not at all, but lonesome would be a good word." I said there's a difference you know, and went on to yak another 30 minutes about just that. I said I left a world where the phone always rings, someones always stopping by, dinner invites are always impromptu, and there places to go and people to tend to. Diving into a full time job, when I came off of a several year hiatus....In that new full time job there is one employee, a parrot, poodle, and a computer, where there used to be several employees, colleagues, and yes, a bunch of bosses. Theres bound to be adjusting, and I'm not there yet. I give it hell on a daily basis and this is my choice, my desire, my passion, my dream. But there are adjustments none the less. I told him that I had spoken to my daughter today, and I was concerned about her stress. He too, voiced his concerns and reminded me that I am sooo not in control of OPP ( other peoples problems).

But let me ask you something..... Isnt it natural, so very natural, for a Mother ( of many) and also a career in the service industry to do what she has always done, and does well? Whats that you say? THE NUTURER. What else do I know this well? I do it because it comes natural, and when I dont have an opportunity to do this, I am amiss eh? Of course I can stand in the shower and belt out Diana Ross IT"S MY TURN all I want, but the REAL me will always be the nuturer, like all of the other care takers in the world. I learned what I lived, as everyone does. I once embroidered a little logo onto a friends quilt as a table topper. It says... "She feeds her family, and she feels full". How freaking true is this for each and every one of us nuturers in the world?

So in this job of mine, that I truly love, and I couldnt be any more driven than I am right now... it is indeed a lonesome job. It has its rewards, u bet. I can still be the nuturer that I am with a quilt presented to warm you, soothe you, make you comfortable, keep you warm, and yes.. make you smile or even laugh. It gives me value to be able to contribute to our future in a manner of my choosing. ( home occupation) But I gotta tell you, scolding the dog, or trying to hold a conversation with a parrot, doesnt hold a candle to real time, real live, relationships. So, if you call here and I talk your ear off, remember this blog, and know that there is a huge differance between being lonely, and being lonesome. I could never be lonely, I have personal riches a plenty. But this is a one woman show in the shop, and lil miss social needs her peeps:)

I feel better now, time for another round of stitchin, cause I did my bitchin>>>>rofl... I crack myself up... Miss you pals:)